MY LIFE EXPERIENCE - HARD TIME

Everyone faces hard time in their life.Many lose their hopes and get defeated.In life we all face ups and downs all we need is the power to overcome all our failures and look ahead.In this blog i will share my experience and how i overcome my failure.

I passed out my 10th std with 90.73% and those were the best days for me.All people around me were so proud of me.Everyone around me appreciated  me so much and respect they gave me i just can't explain in words.My Parents proudly use to say everyone my daughter scored 90% in SSC that feeling for me was like i am living in heaven.Getting good marks in SSC  because of it surely i got best college of Navi Mumbai FATHER AGNEL COLLEGE,Vashi.It was like my dream came true.I chose computer science for 11th -12th.I was with full preparation to rock in college.My college started from July.I was giving my best and the next moment i was hit down on the ground.It started with bit stomach pain as days were moving ahead my pain started increasing.One day in chemistry lab when i was performing practical i fainted and fell down on the floor.From that day my pain started increasing terribly.My treatment was going on but doctors was not able to find the root cause of my stomach pain.In blood test doctor came to know that my WBC'S has increased tremendously,maximum it should be 11,000 and mine was 22,000.From that day i was admitted in hospital for 8 days still my WBC'S was not in normal range but it came down to 17,000.Doctor highly recommended me to stay at home.After coming home my stomach use to pain a lot.I was not able to study .All i use to do is have food,take medicines and sleep.My pain increased in that way that was not tolerable for me.I use to shout ,cry hard and roll on floor because of pain.It was not bearable for me. My apartment people use to gather in my house because of my noise.During that terrible pain i use to literally say to god please take me up i can't bare this anymore and by seeing all this my mother use to cry.My father use to run to hospital.By seeing all this i was totally shattered inside.All my dreams to rock in college was getting away from me, days by days my illness took away all my hopes and made me totally fall on ground,Around two months  i was going through that pain it was actually kidney stone pain,No college,no studies in those two months.More than 50 salines i took in those two months and injections maybe 80+.I was not only physically ill but mentally too.I use to cry a lot ,i use to blame god that why you giving me this terrible  pain.From birth i never saw tears in my father's eyes and once when i was rolling on floor due to pain i saw tears in his eyes that moment whenever i think i cry.Seeing his tears broke me more.At some moment i thought to end up my life but my parents love took me away from that thought.I was in the process of recovery and that time i was hit down once more.My neighbor was so much attached to me ,from my childhood i was under his shadow he use to call me as his daughter and i would call him as my first mentor.His love for me was infinite.He was suffering from jaundice and we both got ill in same time.We both were admitted in same hospital.I was shock to hear that he expired.All his words,his love for me i can't forget.Losing person so much close to you is the greatest loss.After seeing his dead body all made me more down and broken.Physically and mentally on both sides i was ill.Some how i gathered all energy and started recovering.My Parents, teachers and friend helped me a lot to recover.I knew i was totally down in my academics but then i still aroused little hope in me to do better.I started working hard simultaneously i started taking care of my health.Some how i managed to scored 60% in 11th.The scores was really poor comparatively to 10th std but It gave me hope to work on my dreams.

My 12th std started i was physically recovered but mentally still i was not 100% recovered.All 11 std failures was pulling me back.One day i thought whatever made me fall i will rise up now,i will never regret and blame god.I will get back real me.I will work hard .I started  working hard and pushing me up.I use to throw away all negative thoughts and use to focus only on positivity .It gave me strength to work hard.I was getting back with real me and now life once again played game with me.It was December when it was crucial time for us to study because boards exams was only  2 months away .At starting symptoms was that i was not able to eat food ,whenever i use take food near my mouth i use to vomit because of  it i started skipping my lunch and dinner.I was more focused on studies so i didn't considered as a problem . I got more weak and time came in such way that while walking i use to faint.My body was not in my control.So again i was admitted 15 days or maybe more then that.My 1st prilim exam started in college and i was admitted in hospital.It was like history was repeating.Even doctor was not getting the cause of my illness.They were not able to detect my disease .One day i lost my voice in morning that was really dangerous for me,I was not able to speak .I was immediately moved to MGM hospital within 4-5 hrs my voice came back but those 4-5 hrs was worst for me and my whole family.It was due to some chemical reaction of medicines which reacted in terms of losing my voice temporary .During that time my dad was in Gujarat and my mother was alone.She was totally shattered again by seeing me in this condition,Even i lost all my hopes because all flashbacks were coming in my mind and god was putting me in same condition again and again.I was totally weak and broken again.This time my mother was facing alone and she was only support for me.Being in army for my dad it was not able to come back from Gujarat.My mother called my cousin to gives us support .At last we came to know that i'm suffering from jaundice and that was scary moment because my neighbor died because of jaundice only.After that i got right treatment and i started recovering.By that time it was January mid .My parents ,teachers everyone said me to take drop in 12th std but my inner voice was not listening all i decided was i will appear for exam and i will give my best because of my last year experience i learned one thing '" no matter  how many hurdles god  put in our path there is also way to jump over it".So i started studying again without any regrets ,all my aim was to do my best.I studied hard and i scored 72% in 12th with First class i passed out.After passing all were proud because i didn't give up.In those two years of my life i learned so many things ,i experienced so many things which actually made me stronger.All i did was i kept on fighting and working hard and i always kept my hope awake.Now when i look back i see that it was not right that happened to me but i feel proud of myself that i fought against it and continued my journey.